It’s happened to lots of us at one time or another, you are not alone in thinking this sometimes. The enemy would have you think you have gone too far, too far to be saved. The enemy would have you think that you aren’t godly because you can’t pray pretty prayers like the other church members. Satan would have you think that your past is so ugly that the church would surely fall down on you if you attempted to go in. The devil is a liar and he wants to steal, kill, and destroy anything and everything you have.
Truth time. I do not pray those pretty prayers, you know the ones. I pray. That’s what God wants me to do. I have to remind myself, daily sometimes, that God does love me and He has forgiven me for my sins. The devil tries hard to bring me down but that doesn’t mean I am doing something wrong. He is trying to trip me up because God has a purpose for me in His kingdom. If he is trying to trip you up, call on the Lord, and if words fail you like they sometimes do me then just call out the name of Jesus. There is power in the name of Jesus. You have authority in the name of Jesus. It’s your turn to smile and tell the enemy “Not today.”